Life slowed down to a moment by moment, crawl. This pencil skirt loving, lesson plan making, on time women has turned into someone that could have spit up in my hair at any moment, toys and books all over the floor and not knowing what any moment of the day will be like. I used to think that I would have a spotless house, a “put together” baby and schedule. That is not reality.
When did it happen to you? Was it when your first child was born? Maybe it happened when you were making dinner in your new house? Did it happen when you heard the piano play and your groom waiting at the end of the aisle? You have to come to a point where you look around and realize that God provided.
For 5 years, Jordan has made the comment, “I want to get you something you have always wanted, but I want to wait until we have a house.” I am not a gifts oriented person whatsoever, but I have had a list in my head of all the things it could possibly be. A family name sign? A piece of jewelry with some sentimentality of a home? Maybe a new set of dishes? Nope. I was completely wrong. For 5 years, I have heard him talk this gift up like it was going to be an epic and amazing gift. People, he gave me a withering tree.
Jordan has had to do things for me and with me that he has never had to do before. For the first time in my life, I am feeling and seeing my body change. I make jokes all the time referring to myself as “big mama” and saying that there is nothing hotter than the bowling ball of a belly under my shirt. He knows me though. When you are with the right person, they know what you mean when you make these comments.
I have always adapted to wherever I was living at the moment. My art would be spread across the dining room table, on the side table next to the couch or shoved under the bed in a rolling bin. If I was working on a piece, I had to leave it out with the risk of spaghetti being splashed across it or coffee making a permanent stain. For all of you who have bought a piece from me, don’t worry! None of my fears have come true, as of yet.
I believe the scariest reality of knowing a child is coming, is also knowing that she has the full potential of being all that I don’t like about myself. Staying home with her will be such a joy, but it also comes with such a responsibility. She will learn how I speak about others, how I view others, and will watch those moments of impatience.
As most of you know, I have been teaching for 6 years now and have loved every minute of it. In my first days at Seacoast Charter as a kindergarten teacher, I remember fearing how I would fill the day up or how I would learn to manage 18 sets of eyeballs just wanting to play. Walking in the hallway was an adventure and bathroom time became way too much information.
I fully believe that God has given us gifts that reflect His glory. Since December, I have been slowly doing my art, but also taking in these moments. This past school year has brought so many changes. Jordan was in the last rotations from August through December, while also trying to apply to positions in Jacksonville and here in Atlanta. There were times of frustration because all we wanted was to settle down and stop the ever “transition period.”
There is no way to top off such an amazing trip than what we experienced in the opera house. Even with the wonderful experience of that night, we had one last stop before our trip back to the states. Without planning it, we happened to be two blocks from Hillsong United Church in Waterloo.
This was the big day of the Sydney Opera House! We woke up and realized that we had to take to the car back (make that, got to take the car back..ha!) to Avis. We had the grand idea of running some errands with it and than dropping it off, but it was easier said than done. Apparently, Sydney’s parallel parking on the streets and most parking garages were shut down for New Years Eve. We pulled in and out of several garages and decided to make our way back to the rental place. I have never been more relieved to give up a car in all my life. Jordan did an amazing job, but it definitely was something I was happy to give up.